This is ME! I love hard, I cry a LOT and I care deeply. I am highly sensitive and very creative.
I have experienced tremendous growth, both personally and spiritually over the last 5 years, now living life as my more authentic self.
Over the past couple of years I have watched people I consider friends, seemingly walk out of my life with no warning or explanation. People I believed in my heart, were friends for a lifetime. Most of the time, ok, who am I kidding? My mind always jumps right in to interrogate me, demanding answers to this question. “Ok Kimberly, what have you done?” This sends my mind into a frenzy of recalling last visits, calls, and texts, searching for the least little thing that might have been the tipping point. Most often, unlike my mind, my heart knows and understands it’s likely nothing I’ve done, but more likely something going on within the other person.
The lens with which I view (have been viewing) is through a lens of love, through what my heart believes to be true or at least, desires for those friendships. Yet as I sit and reflect on the life of my relationship with each of these people, the reality doesn’t match what my heart believes to be true. Truth be told, the possibility exists that the season of or reason for these friendships is finished. I know God calls me to love and I do love, I love hard! That’s why it hurts. But, I also know God wants me to love, honor and care for myself without trampling on the hearts and feelings of others. I have learned how very important and necessary self care is. Having said that, I love me, my authentic self, more (most of the time at least). Reflecting on the me of 5 or 10 years ago, I have come to respect and honor myself by choosing not to shape shift simply to fit someone else’s idea of who I am.
I was not formed by a cookie cutter to fit into a mold, I was formed and am molded by the loving, masterful hands of my Creator, on purpose, for a purpose. The same Creator that smiled when He made me and I pray He smiles at my heart, every day.
This is ME! I love hard, I cry a LOT and I care deeply. I am highly sensitive and very creative
Where have you experienced growth in your life, especially through challenges in relationships?
My prayer for you is that God grant strength and wisdom to discover and follow the plans our great Navigator has for you.