This was my Monday face. When I started writing this entry, it was intended for a particular Monday, September 30th to be exact. But it also became my yesterday Monday face. It’s my “I’m just physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted” face. I would be lying if I said otherwise. Monday or not, some days are just more challenging than others.
Monday’s often get a bad rap just because they happen to fall in line after the weekend. I can’t tell you what day of the week my journey with chronic pain started, but there’s only a 1 in 7 chance it started on a Monday.
Like Monday’s, suffering doesn’t have a great reputation either because who loves Monday or suffering. I can’t tell you that I love either, but I can tell you with 100% certainty that God, my Father and creator, does great work through suffering and not only that, He does great work on any day that end’s in “day”.
My journey has been extremely challenging, especially the more recent part. In mid September I had a micro stimulator implanted in my back that is intended to help relieve some of the neuropathy pain I have been dealing with for several years. The recovery/healing time was difficult, not because I can’t handle pain, but the procedure pain combined with my already, often times, overwhelming foot pain, proved to be nearly unbearable. Yet here I sit, on the other side of what seemed an insurmountable challenge, sharing it with you.
My incisions have healed and I’m getting accustomed to wearing an external antenna and battery pack each day. I would love nothing more than to be able to say that I am pain free, but that is not the case. On top of whatever neuropathy still lingers, I also have something called complex regional pain syndrome (CRPS), as well as arthritis, bouts of plantar fasciitis, and achilles tendinitis. It’s days like today, when the pain just won’t ease up, that make it hard to distinguish one pain from another. I could very easily blame it on Monday or even blame it on God and I don’t think anyone would blame me. But I don’t blame either. In fact, through it all I haven’t blamed God once. I don’t believe God is doing this “to me”, I believe with all my heart He is doing this FOR ME. I know that my Father does not want me to be in pain. Pain is simply a part of life and it’s because of and through my Father, that I am thankful for every part of my life, including the pain.
In fact, there is lots of joy, despite the pain and I am so excited to share some of the amazing, joyful, things going on in my life. More to come! Time for rest. God bless!
theheARTofkimmy 
Prayers to uplift you and Let God take over..
As you know nothing is impossible with the Heavenly Father…
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Thank you Linda 🙏🏼 I am trusting God with the process, keeping my heart and ears tuned on Him, and trying to be patient as I wait for His reply!
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Thank you for this. Needed to hear how to have a heart for God through stuff that sometimes seems insurmountable. Praying for you and complete healing
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Thank you Cheryl! God is good, all the time. His plans will not fail, they will not be foiled, and He will deliver us!! Praying for you too for whatever your need! God bless!
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OH Kim my prayers are with you every day. I truly understand what pain can do to a person. My husband suffered so badly but never lost faith that the Lord was near him & yet the pain changed this beautiful man & filled him with fear & sadness that he didn’t understand. He continually looked for the answers & with huge amounts of medicines was never able to find the right combination for the constant pain. Our family gave him the most care & devotion continually & still the pain continued. We all have to try our very best to deal with the hurtful things in our lives, the best we can. You have a great faith & hang tight to it , that alone will give you peace. You have a beautiful gift that God has given you by opening your heart to all of us. My prayers , for you, will continue & I know they will be answered in Gods way & his time. You are a true follower of Chtist, blessing always. Doris
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Thank you so much Doris for you kind words of encouragement. I pray every day that God continues to carry me and keep me free from fear and sadness so I can live for Him and his glory.
It is encouraging to me to have you tell me you feel God had given me a gift in my sharing and you see me as a true follower. It is affirmation that God is answering my prayers and that I am following His plan. Thank you and God bless!!
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